July 15. 2015
“For this reason I believe”
There is no hiding that I’m a Jesus loving girl. I live, I talk , and I breath Jesus every second, every moment, and everyday of my life. So, what made me come to this decision? Was it because I was raised in a Christian home? Or because I attended a Christian school? Maybe it because my parents are pastors. Well maybe its just because this was all I knew? Well none of these are to accurate.
Well I was rasised Christian until my grandma passed. She used to bring me to church every Sunday with her. I love going and she taught me how to pray and read the bible. Sometime I use to hate when she would call me to her room to read the bible or show me how to pray. I thought it was so boring as a little girl, well it paid off! I remember this one time she called Amen 9 40 and had me to say a scripture I was so embarrassing lol as if anyone knew it was me. I did have to say my name and of course the man didn’t catch it and I was so upset. When your name is Aldininika as a little girl with a little voice and having o repeat it over and over again it’s embarrassing , like mom why did you give me this name?? I remember the day she taught me the “Now I lay me down to sleep Prayer” and the nights she would call my mom to make sure I prayed with her on the phone before I went to bed.Also, I have this great aunt who goes to church every Sunday and if you went by her house in the summer you would be at church on Sunday no fuss! She is very on it about teaching everyone the “Our Father Prayer” and that we pray before we go to sleep. So I guess you can say I have a Christian background. I was a part time Christian growing up by the way there is no such animal. You either hot or cold! Revelation 3:16 “So, because you are lukewarm–neither hot nor cold–I am about to spit you out of my mouth.”
Secondly, never had I attended a Christian grade school. I attended pretty great schools but, none of them Christian. Thirdly, my parent WERE NOT pastors , but they were great parents! Fourthly, Christianity wasn’t all I knew or was exposed to. My uncle is Jehovah Witness and I researched just about all religions to see what they all had to offer.
Now for this is the reason I believe!
I remember 5 years ago around October to November 2009 God began dealing with my heart. See I was the person that always knew when something was a sin and admitted that I knew. Jeremiah 31:33 “I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people.” I was one of those people who sinned and hated when they sin but desperately wanted a get out of jail free card to free me from my condemnation! What I really need was Jesus. God began dealing with my heart my first year in college. I remember the first day I felt so out of place and didn’t know why??? I was pursuing something that I wanted to do or at least close enough. See I was in School for early childhood education, because whatever I was going to do in life I wanted it to be something that people can use for the rest of there life, because everything else was pointless. So, people will always use colors and numbers and everyone remembers their kindergarten teacher! I remember God began speaking to me on destiny and purpose and what he called me to do! I was like God I can’t do what you called me to do because I CAN’T STOP SINNING!!. God started placing desires in my heart to preach the Gospel around the world and I began to really really try to get right, but I was failing at it miserably. Still partying,having sex outside of marriage, and more! I was a mess and a wreck and I wanted God so bad, but I didn’t know how to get rid of these weights!
Fast forward to March 26, 2010 I was invited to come to church by these radical young people, I was amazed at how they boldly spoke about Jesus and sin without fear of what man thought. They invited me and I said I’m going to come this Sunday! I was so happy! I went home and asked my mom would she come with me and she said yes!! What!!! Now see you have to understand that she always told me no she didn’t have anything to wear to go to church whenever I would ask her to attend any church. So, that was ONLY God! On that same day my friend calls me said she is back in town and want to go clubbing I immediately gets so excited and say yes girl lets go Saturday night then I proceeded to tell her that I couldn’t be out all night because I wanted to go to church in the morning! Matthew 13:19 The seed that fell on the footpath represents those who hear the message about the Kingdom and don’t understand it. Then the evil one comes and snatches away the seed that was planted in their hearts.” That scripture is so true! So I went out that Saturday night and remember that night being the wildest night ever! I was out of control I couldn’t even walk. I remember God speaking to me in the club as clear as if he was standing right there “My child what are you doing?” I thought I was going crazy so I kept drinking then I started to feel like something else began to take 0ver my body. We left around 1 so I could get sleep and attend church. I remember when I went home I went to my closet and cried out to God telling him I didn’t want to live like this anymore that I was DONE!! that morning at church I gave my heart back to God and stop everything. now I wasn’t perfect, but I surrender and allowed God to work on me.
See I believe in the name of Jesus because when I was stuck in my sin he showed me he was there that he never left me. God showed me that even form my childhood his hand was on me that’s why I had my grandmother showing and teaching me about Him. I believe in the name of Jesus because His Grace covers my sin and enables me to walk victorious! No other name besides the name of Jesus allows that Muslim walk in condemnation and rely on works to get them into heaven really all religions do! Jesus allows me to have a constant relationship with him we talk everyday! I BELIEVE IN THE NAME OF JESUS BECAUSE THERE IS POWER, FREEDOM AND GRACE!!
If your reading this blog and isn’t sure you have a relationship with God and would like to start it now or your a Christian who has lost your fire!
repeat this prayer with your mouth but, BELIEVE it in your heart!
God I know I’m a sinner and have walked away from your love and mercy,I ask that you forgive me and wash me with the blood of Jesus that makes all things new I asked that you come into my heart and be the Lord of my life. I do believe that your son Jesus died on the cross for my sins. I ask That you guide and direct my path. Spark a passion for you in my heart. I ask your Holy spirit to come into my life! In Jesus name amen!
Now your a new creation get a bible read it daily and spend time with God everyday!