My Journey to becoming a wife #1

To be perfectly honest I’m scared  yes I’m scared not to be interpreted as not sure, confused,or having cold feet but I’m scared. Before every major decision I’ve had to make in my life always had that feeling of oh my gosh this is really about to or this is really happening. 
I remember clear as day when I first gave my heart to God. I remember sitting in the back of church in a be my first time there I don’t to much remember the sermon but I know it was on the Holy Spirit. March 28, 2010 I remember he gave an altar call I lifted my hand and I remember him saying you know Jesus didn’t die in the closet he died on the cross for everyone to see so if you are a shamed of him he will be ashamed of you in front of his father so if you lifted your hand come down to the altar. I remember being so nervous  because I didn’t know what was going to happen next but I knew one thing that if I was making this decision I was in all the way. 
Commitment is not a hard thing for me and has never been. I have always given by 100% everything that I committed myself to, but throughout my life I’ve had people give up on me  letting go of the commitment they made. I carried that so long and I realized I had to let it go and forgive. Because I serve a God who never backs down! Thank God He is so faithful always seeking us always believing in us never ever ever giving up on us. Our God is faithful and that’s the beauty of letting fear go. When we let fear go we allow God to step in and show His faithfulness. If we continue to hold on to that fear of people constantly letting you down. You shut God out as well. 
God has shown me His faithfulness in many ways one being in my fiancé. He is so faithful to Gods word and truly seeks God with everything in Him. He put God 1st in everything He do at the best moments in life and the worst. He treats me like a queen and gives me my hearts desire. God has showed me through him that I don’t have to be afraid,because God is faithful to His word. 
So three hip hip hoorays for letting fear go!! 


Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments. 
Deuteronomy 7:9