The Confidence Issue: Part 1 ” Loving the skin your in”


Ever felt like you were lacking confidence? Well I have felt like that several times. Growing up it wasn’t easy being a kid. I never felt loved, or pretty. I always felt like I had to do something to be loved. I had such low self esteem. I constantly battled with the thoughts ” am I pretty enough?” “are my clothes cool enough?”  “Will the guys like me?”. All these questions I had floating through my mind. Pretty normal for a child right? Yes and no. What was the cause of these questions? I felt often like I wasn’t fit to be certain people friend because of how I look. I want to show you in this blog how to Love the skin your in.

As a little girl growing up I remember being teased because I was dark and thinking it was a bad thing being dark, because you got picked on. I remember one day we were all lining up in the hallway for lunch. Pushing, shoveling, laughing, being really loud with all the excitement from being let out of class. me and my friend proceeded to skip the line to get closer to our other friends. That’s what kindergartens do. I remember that moment when I tried to skip one of the guys saying “You cant skip your not pretty” I remember that being the first time I have ever heard anyone say those words. Those words hurt and the laughter of other kids. I began to look at it deeper , why didn’t he think I was pretty. I began to notice the color of  my friends skin and mines were different. See I never notice or knew of color before then, but that’s were it all began the color crisis.


That’s a pretty girl right?

From that moment I began to want to be just like “them” the lighter color people. I began to lose sight of who I was. I wanted to dress act, talk, and listen to their music.

See it wasn’t until I found Christ is where I thought I was pretty. Seriously in 2010 was the FIRST time I looked into a mirror seen a pretty girl. Before I seen all the things I needed to fix, the things people didn’t like about me. The stuff people smirked and laughed about. My skin color, my hair, my teeth, and the list goes on. It was crazy I really let people determine my life but its so easy for us to do that when we don’t know who we are. For me it took 19 years to find out who I was. Now I’m able to love the skin I’m in.

For you it may be something different that you dealt or is still currently dealing with, but through Christ we can lay those things down, Through Christ we can find who we truly are. We all having different callings, and destinies!

Spend some time with Jesus and ask him is there any past insecurities that might be holding you back from going further in him. Insecurities can holds us back from our calling in Christ, it keeps us from being bold and stepping out.

Never compare yourself to anyone because we all have diffenent fingerprints for a reason, to be UNIQUE! -Aldininka Darensbourg


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Becoming beautiful flaws and all

 I decided to be open like a book, because even though I’m behind this screen and you read or will read all these great stories on how I over came and all this great encouragement I’m still human I have so many flaws and I’m not perfect at all. I make so many mistakes and some decision are not too wise. I beat myself about a lot of small things and sometimes lose faith. Then I need encouragement myself. But I continue to press on and continue this race because I won’t be perfect AT ALL at least not on this earth.

Everyday I learn something new about myself, something new to kill in myself. That is a Christian walk not walking around like nothing ever goes wrong or I’m perfect, because I’m a Christian Human being and I’M NOT PERFECT and I love not being perfect!!!

This blog is all about my life day to day, week to week year to year, well you get it… I’m sharing things that I feel would help you, encourage you, or give you faith. Often in my walk I went through things thinking no one else could relate, but to find out that people all around me were going through he exact same thing. This is another reason why I want to be crazy open so YOU won’t feel alone, or give up!

Number one rule is to take the ball and keep rolling. No matter what goes on, no matter who leaves or gets bench. Something we need to be benched to take a step back and watch the game replays and see what we done wrong and how to fix it.

Our Christian walk is a journey….. now let’s walk!

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Quick announcements!!

I’m so excited about my YouTube channel that will be starting soon!! I’ll keep you posted!



Priority Check Are you on track?

Wishful Wednesday

What are your top three priorities ?
Is the question my pastor asked this Sunday. This question rocked me It made me think hard. As he told us how God has asked him think and that his number one priority above everything is to be a father, and a husband. How he thought it was to pray and intercede, pastor, etc.

So the next day in my prayer time I had a talk with God and we went over just that my top three priorities.
Top priorities
1.Prayer and Intercessor
2. Being a leader in Hospitality and 180y
3. YouTube channel and Blog

These are my top three I picked number one because that’s what I’m called to do and a gifting that I have. Not something that I just want to do but something I feel that is required of me. This is not just my regular alone time with God this is different this is when God place someone or something on my heart and I have to go in on someone’s behalf. Most of the time I don’t know who or what I’m interceding for I just know there is a urgency. Secondly , being a leader over Hospitality (ministry) and 180Y (youth division ) at my church. While I reflected on those things God showed me I haven’t been giving it my all that I slacked up and needed to refocus. This Is why I love spending time with God, He shows you how much he cares through simple things like “hey your slipping, here is how to fix it” so I want to devote more time in those areas. I never want to lose sight on the things God has given me “faithful with little God will make us rulers over much”. Thirdly is my blog and Youtube channel. Now before my blog and youtube channel my priority was being a intern at the bible college I attended. Actually that was my #1 priority but now since I graduated my priorities have changed. I can now devote more time to prayer, intercession, ministry, and now my youtube channel and blog. Doing this “priority check”I now see the things I need to work on and my life can get more in order.

It’s normal for is as busy humans to get sidetracked and off. But all it takes is coming back to the Father and re-prioritizing our life. Asking and seeking God for the things we need to let go of or the things we need to devote more time to.

I challenge you to spend time with God and do a “priority check”

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How in the World can I be Abstinent in a World full of Sex?

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Let’s be real. Just because I’ve made the decision to wait until marriage, that doesn’t mean I don’t want sex.

Heck, we all do. Part of our purpose on this Earth is to be fruitful and multiply. So, there will be times where we just naturally have the desire to have sex, even when that desire is inconvenient with our present circumstances.

It’s not uncommon for people to think I’m crazy for waiting until marriage. It’s also not uncommon for people to give me strange looks for being so bold about my testimony. However, I’ve moved past that.

I’ve learned that if I’m going to commit to this walk with God, then I’m going to have to do it all the way, regardless of what people think. Part of that walk includes being so frank about what I’ve been through and experience so that people can be encouraged…

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how to saved a life!

Weekly Writing Challenge: Honey versus Vinegar

I remember this like it was yesterday…Even though it was five years ago. I was just a new recently born again believer and I was feeling down and a little depress. That’s not what I suppose to feel right?? I just gave my life to God and is following His will. I just made the decision to stop attending college and go to a bible college and I was getting all type of negativity from my family. I needed to get away! So I hopped on a bus and headed downtown. I love going downtown to sit by the river when I have a lot going through my mind. As I’m walking through woldenburg park this homeless man comes out of no where and ask me for a hug. I immediately wonder could he be crazy and try to rob me ?? I feel this peace from the Holy Spirit nudging me to just hug him. So I following His leading and hug the guy. I was nervous but surprisingly he didn’t try anything. It was a quick 3 to 5 second hug but, afterwards the guy went into explaining to me how he wanted to end his life and he felt life wasn’t worth living anymore and just by me stopping and giving that hug changed his mind. I became so excited and we talked about 5 minutes and I got to tell him about Jesus. That turned my day around as well!

Wow who knew a hug would save a life! I couldn’ve judged him, thought he was a pervert, or was going to rob me. As humans we are so quick to judge, but judgment limits the lives we could save!

“To love a man enough to help him, you have to forfeit the warm, self-righteous glow that comes from judging.”
― Ron Hall


Click here to read how to save a life Part 2